The room seemed out of focus as her eyes slowly
opened. The little light available in the hospital
room seemed to fuse with the surroundings adding to
her confusion. She was groggy, and her body ached in
several different places. Evangeline closed her eyes
again, hoping the second time around her thoughts
would gain some clarity.
This time when her eyes opened, her surroundings were
suddenly clear, pieces seemd to come together like a
puzzle as she gazed into the deep blue eyes she knew
"Hey," she out on her brightest smile.
"Hey." John made an attempt to return the warmth, but
there was a saddness behind those eyes.
"John," the tone of her voice changed suddenly.
Istinctively her arm snaked up to his face, caressing
the side of his face. "What is it?"
Evangeline tried to sit up, but the blindidn pain that
shot through her side immedately forced her back
against the pillows.
"I'm ok," She saw John move closer, his hand moving to
cover hers, where she had placed it to help ease the
pain. But before she could stop him he was hitting the
call button frantically. As Evangeline protested once
again, the door to he hospital room swung open as Dr.
Watts nad Michael walked in closely followed by a
"Good your awake, How are you feeling?" Dr. Watts
checked Evangeline's vitals as the nurse helped and
Michael watche on.
"I'm fine." she started to say before John abruptl cut
"Her side seems to be giving her trouble, she winced
when she tried to move." Evangeline's eyed immediately
moved to his. But John wasn't looking at her. He was
was talking ot the doctor, but not to her. Evangeline
immediately felt like she wasn't in the room, like he
hadn;t acknoledged a single word that had come from
her mouth. The feling that crept over her was that of
a dsobedient child that had been hurt by going against
her faher's wishes, and she didn't like it. What made
it woirse was that it came from a man who was suppose
to understand her, to respect her, to be her equal in
every way possible.
"That won'r be necessary," she piped up at the mention
of another night in the hospitla for further
"I think she might need something more for the pain,"
Dr Watts nodded at John's suggestion. Michael McBain
didn't miss the look that Evangeline gave his brother.
"Everything looks pretty good," Dr. Watts turned back
to her patient, seemingly uncomfortable over the
situation. "Umm...Evangeline, I can only do so much, I
need you to tell me, tell US what happened."
Evangeline held her breath as all eyes focused on
her. She'de completely forgotten about her reason for
being there, she hadn't thought about what she'd say
about her condition. John's eyes burned into her as if
watching the wheels turn in her head, struggling to
come to with a plausible explanation. Evangeline
wanted to tell him the truth, that she had argued with
RJ, that he had lost it and tried to strangle her,
tackling her to the floor. But she didn't....
"I fell," she blurted out, Dr Watts slighly nodded her
head as if it confirmed everything, Michael cocked an
eyebrow, forcing Evangeline to formulate the lie
firther. She didn't think of the lie as it flowed
from her. She explained how she had been at home
fixing a cabinet and had taken a fall landing heavily
on her side. It seemed so absurd, but somehow she made
it believable. As she continued talking she avoided
Johns eyes, his face was expressionless.
"Well, "Dr Watts shrugged, "Detective McBain is right.
We definatly should keep u here overnight to make sure
there's no more bleeding. Besides you need all the
rest you can get to facilitate the healing process."
Evangeline didn't hide her anger. Michael shot her a
knowing smile as he patted her shoulder reassuringly.
Dr Watts was still talking as John thanked her and
walked her to the door. Evangeline waited for the
doctor to leave before she decided to speak up.
"Michael would you excuse us, I need to speak to John
alone," Michael didn't hesitate as he headed towards
the door mentioning how he would check on Evangeline
later. Once he was gone, Evageline sat up, her anger
building as she locked eyes with John.
"Are you mad at me or something?", she already knew
the answer to the question, the anger was evident in
his eyes, boiling so close to the surface. But she had
chosen to ask anyway. John was a hard person to read,
and as well as se knew him, she also knew that she had
to work to draw out any kind of straight answer where
his feeling towards her were concerned.
"John?, " he hadn't answered as he had crossed the
room to stand beside her.
"Are you ready to tell me the truth?" he threw back
suddenly. " I hope all that bull about the fall was
for Dr Watts's benefit coz I didn't buy a single word
"John I can't tell you what you want to hear." she
"What the truth? My bad I thought those strings
actually meant somethig. It meant you and me and
commitment, and trust and-"
"RESPECT," she finished the sentence angrily.
"What?" he seemed genuinely confused.
"What the hell was that all bout John, with Dr Watts?
You pretty much ignored everything I had to say and
talked to her like I wasn't even in the room and YOU
want to talk about trust, and-"
"Ok, you know what I can't talk to you like this, you
need your rest, and the way I'm feeling right now, I
might say something I don't mean." He started to walk
"The say something you DO mean!" she yelled suddenly,
"why is it always cloak anddagger with you. Its so
hard to read you like this-when you shut me out!" the
urgency in her voice brought unwanted tears to her
eyes. It made her feel weak and lonely. The same
lonely she'd felt the night of the gala, when John had
left her apartment.The same lonely she felt now. How
possible was it to feel so empty standing so close to
a man she cared so deeply about. John had stopped to
turn and look at her, reading the emotion written all
over her face.
"You wann know what I MEAN! Do you have any idea what
it was like for me watching you lying in that bed,
hurt and not being able to do a damn thing to help
you!" He had moved to cup her face, holding it close
to his, firmly. "DO YOU!"
"John, you can't always be there for me," she was
fighting back tears now. "You're there for a everyone,
everyone who needs you. People trust you and are
alwasy running to you for help. I want to be the one
person you don't have to worry about. One less person
for you to rescue, I want to be the one person you can
lean on." Evageline's head lowered before he forced
her to look up.
"Evangeline, I WANT you to need me. Don't you get it?
You're it for me, right here and right now.Part of
this thing-with us has to mean being there for
eachother. Don't try and do this for yourself. I can't
handle it if you shut me out, you mean too much, WE
mean too much." Evageline knew those were hard words
for him to say. He was right, she owed it to their
relationship to tell him the truth, about everything.
"John," she touched his hands where they still cupped
"Evageline-" They both looked up and past John to the
figure at the door. John's hands slowly moved from her
face as he turned back to her before getting up.
Turning so that his back was towards her, Evageline
watched as John tensed up at the site of RJ Gannon.