“Thank you for a…interesting evening.” Evangeline
stood up to leave.
Against her better judgment she had agreed to a
nightcap at Capricorn with RJ. She had decided that
this would be her final attempt to gain information on
him. She would wait till he was in the back making
their drinks then look around his office for anything
she could find on the Santi’s and their connection to
But RJ hadn’t let Evangeline out of his sight, he had
stayed close by, at all times, watching her every
“If only those cops would get off my back…” he spat.
“They were just doing their job RJ,” she answered
hesitantly, careful of his reaction.
“Of course, and that now includes bending the arm of
the law to facilitate personal vendetta’s”,
His eyes held hers, making her aware of the true
meaning behind his words.
“RJ, John would never do that, he’s not that kind of
The laugh that escaped RJ was deep, and genuine. There
was a hint of malice behind it and although a grin was
plastered on his face his eyes were deadly serious.
“My dear Evangeline, are you actually defending that
Her heartbeat immediately raced, was she slipping up?
“If I didn’t know better I would swear you still had
feelings for McBain.”
She turned away abruptly, a pathetic attempt to mask
the real answer.
“RJ, I told you things were over between John and I,
why don’t you trust me?”
She could tell he was taken back by the emotion in
“Right, right, we should just forget all about McBain
and his sidekick and concentrate on us.”
He was sitting uncomfortably closer to her now; she
could feel is breath on her cheek. Evangeline watched
as he leaned in closer, not knowing what to do as his
lips came to meet hers. As she felt his tongue attempt
to dive deeper into her mouth she tried to stay calm,
act normal. But she couldn’t, she couldn’t feel
anything but a cold emptiness towards him that made
feel sick. There was nothing there, no feeling; and
now more than ever she was sure there had never ever
been, it just wasn’t the same. He wasn’t John.
She pushed away, blocking his chest with her arms.
“I can’t do this,” her voice was shaky.
The look on his face showed a lack of surprise and for
a moment he just stared at her.
“You really are a tease, first you want me, then you
don’t, then... You know Evangeline, some women say no
when they really mean yes.”
She knew what that meant; she had been around enough
criminal to recognize a thinly laced threat.
“You wouldn’t dare.” she held his stare before getting
up to leave,
“I think we should call it a night.”
“Why,” he got up and walked around her,
“So you can run back to McBain like the good helper
He was standing between her and the door.
” I wonder what he would think about that kiss. Tell
me councilor when did your job description extend to
undercover work, it must make for great pillow talk.”
Suddenly Evangeline was deathly afraid, afraid of the
look she saw in his eyes. The contempt, the rage, the
How did he know?
“How long have you known?” she was trembling.
“Long enough,” he smiled,
“I don’t know what’s more disturbing. That you thought
I would be so easy to fool, or that McBain would
actually pimp out his girlfriend to get to me.
My, my Evangeline how times have changed, you would
lose your dignity and self-respect just to bed that
Evangeline made an attempt to leave but suddenly RJ’s
hand came up blocking her from the exit.
“Get out of my way,” she seethed with anger as she
looked into his eyes.
“Tell me,” he ignored her request, “is the sex really
Evangeline tried to push his arm away but there was
no change. She hated him so much right now; she had
to get out of there.
“There it is,” he smirked, “the rage, it looks good on
you. The pain of hurt and betrayal.”
“I’ve tried to be civil about this RJ, but you insist
on making things ugly, I admit I hurt you and I truly
am sorry for that. But I chose John and that’s
something you have to learn to deal with.”
“Aaah yes, paint me as the jealous ex-boyfriend shall
we. Look, I maybe a lot of things but I never used you
to get back at my enemies, or put you in the middle of
any of my battles. You must have had to really scrape
the bottom of the barrel to come up with scum like
The words hurt her, it hurt that they were blatant
lies and that they cheapened what she had with John.
Before she knew what she was doing, her knee made
contact with his crotch area, RJ let out a howl of
pain, as he slumped over.
“For your information John is more of a man than you
ever were or will ever be. I don’t know what I felt
for you. But I know now it wasn’t love, you don‘t know
how to love, all you do is destroy everyone around
you. What you don’t understand RJ, is that I actually
love him, he’s everything you could never -”
But before she could finish she was suddenly weighed
down by his large hands as they tightened around her
throat. His strength was on top of her as she fell to
the floor, hard, her ribs banging painfully into the
furniture as she did so. She felt the pain rip through
her side as she gasped for air, staring into his
RJ’s grip on her long neck tightened as his body
pressed her painfully into the cold floor. There was a
strange look in his eye, a different RJ had surfaced.
He was foaming at the mouth as he stared at her.
Watching her face contort in pain and the air
dissipated from her lungs. She tried to move but she
was too strong. The pain that shot through her hip
where she had made contact with one of the barstools
was unbearable. She tried to speak but no words
I can’t breathe…I can’t BREATHE.
She knew RJ was talking but her ears wouldn’t stop
ringing, she was starting to feel light headed ash she
watched him speak.
“I will destroy you and everyone around you. I want
you to feel the pain I feel, the way I felt when you
ripped my heart out. I want to watch McBain lose you
and watch his heart turn into a black hole filled with
hate and rage and pain. I want you to feel, exactly
how I feel.”
“RJ get off her!”
Suddenly a woman was pulling RJ’s off of her.
Evangeline had never been so happy to see Sonya Toledo
in her life.
“What the hell are you doing?!!”
Evangeline felt the grip on her throat loosen as RJ
tore himself away.
She lay on the floor coughing and spattering as Sonya
hovered over her. Sonya’s eyes shifted from her to RJ,
who stood in the corner, breathing deeply as he eyed
the two women.
“Jesus, you almost killed her!!” she was helping
Evangeline leaned against the wall to steady herself
as she felt her lungs burn. Her hands move to her
throat, where only moments away RJ had almost made
claim to her life.
” You better get out of here”
She quickly handed Evangeline her purse as she helped
her up to the door.
Evangeline placed a shaking hand on the door handle
before she looked RJ’s way. He wouldn’t look at her.
He just stood there like some foreign creature, a man
she had never seen before.
“Evangeline,” Sonya spoke beside her. “If I were you,
I would keep this little…incident to myself. You never
know who might get hurt.”
Evangeline looked up at her in disbelief. Is she
“You never know how John might take it.”
Oh God, John. Evangeline made a quick exit as Sonya
closed the door behind her and turned back to her
partner in crime.
“Are you out of your mind, your going to ruin
“I-I don’t know what happened?”
His voice lowered to almost a whisper.
“Well, you better pray she doesn’t run to McBain and